I am doing increasingly better! I feel more stable for longer periods of time and the OCD issues are really decreasing! We have had a lot of company lately, which I have enjoyed thoroughly. It's strange, but often I will feel a bit depressed even after having a GOOD time. I think this is simply because it is taxing even to have fun for someone who is in a weakened state of mind most of the time. BUT not this time. I feel great! So this is a sign of stability taking roots. My OCD issue of second-guessing everything that I say or think is also diminishing. Soon I am going to compile a summary of what I've learned and practiced and gained from this journey to recovery. I will put it out here so that all can see....if they choose. For now, life is feeling pretty good. Not completely normal, but much better. Still waking up sad, but not dwelling on it.

Woke up feeling sick and sad.
But...it's sure not the first time. I hope one day it will be the last time. Still praising God for the great day yesterday.

What a Day!

I'm just reporting in to say that I had the most wonderful day! I felt actual lightness inside myself. I had a great early morning walk, prayer, classical music while I worked through my computer stuff, and then a great talk on the phone with a friend whose insight into some things I've been feeling was very helpful. Then I worked in my garden, snapped beans and canned them all afternoon while listening to some James Herriot animal stories on tape. I'm still canning tonight at about 9:00, but I still have energy (very unusual!!). There is an actual "lightness" to my head that is not only mental, but feels almost physical. Hard to explain, but quite welcome. I think this is a combination of many things that are working together for healing. Oh, and I've seen no entertainment TV for weeks. I don't know how I'll feel tomorrow, but for right now, I am feeling like the real me. Hallelujah!